Footsteps

The day we had "all that snow" I was able to be home a little longer than normal and I got to help get Abigail ready for Nanna's house. I woke her up and told her I had a surprise for her. We walked over to the window and opened the blinds. The look on her face when she saw all the snow. She was sooo excited! So of course, we got out the snowsuit. We were all ready to go and she looked up at me and said "Mommy, can I walk in your footsteps?" She was talking about in the snow b/c she thought it was too deep for her. With tears in my eyes I said, "Of course you can"

When I was looking for a picture to post with this particular blog, I came across a video of her playing in her Johnny Jump-Up. Not even old enough to talk and now, here she is, 3 years old and not only talking and walking but teaching me life lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. I think about the times when I feel like the snow is so deep and I just look to God and say those same words... Can I walk in your footsteps b/c I'm afraid it's just too deep. Being a mom is one of those times. When she tests me and I'm ready to explode. When I feel overwhelmed with everything I have to do, with her at my side and a husband at work all night. Even the wonderful, amazing stuff when I feel like my heart is just going to explode. Then I think about her growing up one day and then she's gone. Did I do a good job raising her? Is she safe where she is right now? What kind of influences are in her life? Again, I will have to look to God and say, It's a little deep right now... would you mind if I once again walk in your footsteps.

I feel so blessed to learn all the lessons that I have already and I welcome the ones to come. So, anytime my daughter says, "Mommy, can I walk in your footsteps?" I will look at her say, "of course, sweetheart, anytime you need to" and then say a silent prayer that God will layout his footsteps for me to follow so I can lead my daughter.